Feeling a bit broken but its ok

Feeling a bit broken but its ok

A year ago I had major limb reconstruction surgery, where I had my leg broken in two places. The journey of recovery has been more difficult than I expected, but has made me really reflect on what the most important things in life are. When something is broken in this day and age we throw it away. We rarely take the time to mend anything, it’s quicker just to get a new replacement because things are not built to last in the throwaway culture of today. Recently I bought some super glue. Generally, superglue is used to fix something that is broken – the idea is to attempt to glue the…

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Am I forgotten?

Am I forgotten?

After I had my limb reconstruction surgery, most Monday’s Diane and I would make the 2 hour drive to Kings College Hospital in London.  Every week we would be greeted with the same welcome “you need to go for blood tests and x-ray”.  The blood tests I can handle as you take a numbered ticket and can see where you are in the queue.  Even though I have to wait, I know what is going on.  The x-ray on the other hand, drives me mad.  I have to register my name at reception, Diane finds a stool to put my leg up on and then we wait.  An hour goes by…

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Courage does not always roar

Courage does not always roar

As some of you know I have a degenerative knee problem which requires major limb reconstruction surgery, they need to break my right leg above the ankle and knee and then attached a large circular frame with three metal rings circling my leg ankle, shin and just below the knee. These rings would be linked by twelve metal struts that would have to be moved slowly to set the bones correctly and to allow the bone to grow into the gaps created. The frame is on for around 6 months to 12 months. At the moment the operation is scheduled for the 30th June at Kings College Hospital London though…

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I'm spiritually numb

I’m spiritually numb

Many people talk about their times of suffering as the times they have known God closest. For me, it was the opposite; just when I most needed to know God’s presence in my life, when my body, mind and spirit were taking a beating daily, I couldn’t feel him at all. In the darkest moments I wondered if God had left me. My prayers were short and desperate: ‘Please say something God. Anything.’ But there was no response. It helped to know that one of my heroes, Mother Teresa, experienced something similar. She wrote: In my heart there is no faith, no love, no trust. There is so much pain,…

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God won’t give you more than you can bear? Really?

God won’t give you more than you can bear? Really?

In June myself and my friend Singer-Song Andy Flanagan went on a tour “When Faith Gets Shaken” on the back of my book. To be honest I didn’t really know what to expect as had never done anything like this before. I had that very uncomfortable feeling and was filled with conflicting thoughts and fears: Will anyone come? Will it be helpful to people? I don’t want to come across as self–promoting yet at the same time I want people to read the book. I don’t want to be referred to as a Christian Celebrity yet I want to do the tour Argh argh what to do? I spend too…

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