Vulnerability: the Journey Back

Vulnerability: the Journey Back

Whilst having limb reconstruction surgery it is suggested that you meet regularly with a therapist. The consultant explains that what happens to us physically also has an effect on us emotionally and mentally. “Most people get the frames taken off and then think they are fine. But in reality, you’re still recovering,” said my therapist. I could understand what she was saying but nevertheless thought it was time to throw myself back into things, get back to how life used to be. All the jobs that I couldn’t do before I could now do; picking the kids up, cutting the grass etc, so I just went for it. I thought…

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Have I ever had peace?

Have I ever had peace?

Four months after surgery I find myself at yet another hospital appointment, hoping for good news.  If I am honest though, I am trying not to get my hopes up too much so that if it doesn’t work out then I am not too disappointed.  Have you ever done that? Could it be possible that the huge frame attached to my leg could come off and I can start the next part of the process of getting back on my feet (literally)? This would mean I would need to go back on crutches but at least for this leg the frame would be gone. The one thing making me nervous…

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Standing Stubbornly Nowhere

Standing Stubbornly Nowhere

My limb reconstruction operation was three months ago now, but it feels a lot longer. Suddenly the pace of my life took a dramatic change in so many ways. I found it frustrating as I love to plan and look to the future to what we can achieve, but for many weeks I couldn’t tell what the next day would bring, let alone plan anything else. I also found it hard not being able to help Diane – hearing Caleb our youngest child cry and not being able to pick him up, or seeing Diane get more and more tired as I couldn’t help clear up after dinner or drop…

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Why doesn’t Santa visit the poor countries?

Why doesn’t Santa visit the poor countries?

It was a normal morning in the Regan household. My eight-year-old son Daniel looked up from eating his breakfast and said to me, “Dad, why doesn’t Santa go to poor countries?” Those of you who know me well know that I am not often lost for words, but for a while I didn’t know how to answer his question. This had gotten me thinking about some of my friends who live in poorer countries across the world. It got me thinking specifically about my friends in Ghana. The first time I went to Ghana in West Africa was for the dual purpose of serving and learning more about black history….

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Rethinking Courage

Rethinking Courage

Three weeks ago I had major limb reconstruction surgery. I was diagnosed five years ago with a degenerative condition on both knees which needed to be corrected by surgery, but I managed to put the operation off until now. I get very anxious around hospitals and with lots of ongoing health issues with my four children I just didn’t want to do it. In addition, I love what I do and wanted to make sure XLP was in good shape. On 10th October I went into theatre just before 9.00am and came back onto the ward at 3.30pm. We were told the operation had gone well.  The Fibula and Tibia…

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