Showreel Time

Showreel Time

It’s come to that time of year when I need to sit down and start writing lots of talks for the summer festivals. After a year of doing hardly any talks it’s a bit strange to be back in that process but it’s nice to be in a place where I can go out and speak and I’m looking forward to meeting people again. The last year has been a rollercoaster for me and my family and sometimes I still feel unsure whether I’m coming or going. I am going back to the hospital soon to start the conversation about when I should get the second leg operated on and…

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Vulnerability: the Journey Back

Vulnerability: the Journey Back

Whilst having limb reconstruction surgery it is suggested that you meet regularly with a therapist. The consultant explains that what happens to us physically also has an effect on us emotionally and mentally. “Most people get the frames taken off and then think they are fine. But in reality, you’re still recovering,” said my therapist. I could understand what she was saying but nevertheless thought it was time to throw myself back into things, get back to how life used to be. All the jobs that I couldn’t do before I could now do; picking the kids up, cutting the grass etc, so I just went for it. I thought…

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Broken Yet Held Together – Five Months On

Broken Yet Held Together – Five Months On

Yesterday I went to a meeting with my consultant at hospital. He said that the bones in my leg had healed well and the frame could be removed the very next day in theatre. This was totally unexpected.  It’s my 40th birthday next week and Diane and I had at one time hoped the frame would be gone by then, but had recently given up hope as the date got nearer. He said he would have to make some calls and asked me to wait in reception. He eventually came back and said, “sorry but there is no space in surgery until the 25th March, but the other option is…

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Have I ever had peace?

Have I ever had peace?

Four months after surgery I find myself at yet another hospital appointment, hoping for good news.  If I am honest though, I am trying not to get my hopes up too much so that if it doesn’t work out then I am not too disappointed.  Have you ever done that? Could it be possible that the huge frame attached to my leg could come off and I can start the next part of the process of getting back on my feet (literally)? This would mean I would need to go back on crutches but at least for this leg the frame would be gone. The one thing making me nervous…

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Standing Stubbornly Nowhere

Standing Stubbornly Nowhere

My limb reconstruction operation was three months ago now, but it feels a lot longer. Suddenly the pace of my life took a dramatic change in so many ways. I found it frustrating as I love to plan and look to the future to what we can achieve, but for many weeks I couldn’t tell what the next day would bring, let alone plan anything else. I also found it hard not being able to help Diane – hearing Caleb our youngest child cry and not being able to pick him up, or seeing Diane get more and more tired as I couldn’t help clear up after dinner or drop…

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